Journal

The Death-Back Lens

The clearest long-term goal in my life is simple: I want to dance with my son Otto at his 60th birthday.

That one image changes everything.

It changes how I think about strength, recovery, sleep, work, stress, ambition, and what a meaningful life should actually feel like while I am living it.

Most people talk about health as optimization. I want to talk about it as continuity. Can I stay present, capable, loving, and alive enough to keep showing up for the people I care about over decades?

This is the death-back lens behind KULA.

Death is not the mood. It is the clarifying lens. It reminds me that time is real and that vague good intentions are not enough. If I want a strong future, I need rhythms now.

That means less pretending. Less self-betrayal. Less living against my own biology.

More sleep. More movement. More breathing. More honest choices. More time spent on what actually matters.

I do not want a high-performance life that looks impressive but feels empty. I want a life I can inhabit fully.

That is the experiment behind KULA.